Exams! Dum dum dum!!!!

Exams are coming! Exams are coming! Hey! Did you hear exams were coming? Got English tomorrow, and four more next week! Yay! No television! That's fine! I can study and not take a break at all because I need to get high marks! I may be failing now but if I study hard then I'll pass!! Yay!!!
Ok, I can't keep up this charade anymore....exams suck, school sucks, homework sucks, tests sucks, the weather sucks....everything seems to be sucking today. Sad to see what they are all sucking ( a cow maybe?). Well, my life sucks too at the moment. So many things going on, and I just want it all to be over! Why must there be so much on our small teenage shoulders? Is life really worth all this hardship? Let me rephrase that: is a successful life worth all this hardship and responsibility? I don't want to grow up (and I'm not a Toys r Us kid) because I'm scared of what is to come. The chores, the responsibility, the hardcore studying, MCAT, LSAT, whatever AT!! It is all coming into my life whether I like it or not. Being successful really takes a lot of work, and when I think about what my parents did to get to where we are; to buy this house; to buy our education (my sister's for now), I don't know if I can do that. I think it's all about committing to a goal...it could be one goal, it could be a billion, but you have to commit. I hate committing. Its all back to the responsibility and the burdens that come with it. I hate commitment. It's like a plague of locusts that are probably going to swarm and eat me alive for the rest of my life. There's a reason why I'm not interested in a relationships with anyone: commitment. Duh. I guess this is more like personal commitment than anything else. Committing to finishing a project on the last day I can handle...but those only last for a couple of days! It feels like I'm the only one who's scared for the future. The future should be bright and happy where people make lots of cash! But is it really like that? What if I screw up something? What if I mess up my life because of a single summative? I'm screwed forever. There's no time travelling and there's no back tracking. It's over.
Think positive. Be optimistic. Don't worry.
Please let this anxiety and hopelessness be over soon.

New Topic: Is it just me, or is mashing two completely different artists to create a song the new fad in Hollywood?

Brrrr!!!

Gaah! It's so cold! Even with all the layers, the thick coat, the gloves, the toque (sp?), and the scarf, my body freezes up after standing outside for 5 minutes! It is really cold though, and today was the first Winter Storm Warning for the homeless of 2005! I'm a little pissed that there is such a watch for the homeless, I mean, they don't do anything, they just sit and sleep and waste government money. Let them freeze I say! We could make do with cleaner streets in downtown. I know, I sound a little mean, but I don't understand why they can't just go and find a job, or go to a shelter to spend the night! They just have to be independent and sleep on the street, and decide against a warm bed and blankets at a shelter. Foolishness.
My grad photo is tomorrow! Yay! I can't believe it's finally time for our grade to take these photos....we're GRADUATING guys!!! Wow, four years of my life gone in a wink, my marks are struggling, and sometimes I regret even going to the gifted program in the first place. But I would have missed out on all the crazy gifties, which I am now one, and therefore wouldn't have grown as much as I would have if I went to Bethune (puke, no offense to Bethunians). Speaking of puke, I was flipping through my satellite channels, and I came across a show on the Life Network called Manhunt. At first, I thought it was some kind of show where they talked about all these criminals and their stories, but NO! It was a show about finding the next male model! It was kind of like America's Next Top Model, but for guys, and also hosted my Carmen Electra. I mean, she's hot and everything, but she is a horrible host! The idea of a top model show for guys was interesting, but there was a lack of suspense. Usually when you vote someone off, you slowly read the names of the people who are staying, and then, when it reaches the final two, the viewers get all tense as they await for the last name to be read. But no, this one is like, "this is your last shot", and that's it!! The shoots that the guys do too are pretty horrible, and there isn't a lot of creativity behind it. *Sigh*.
Wow, it's getting late and I gotta catch my beauty sleep!

No School Tomorrow

I signed up for the Women's Health Convention trip this week so I don't have to go to school tomorrow! Woohoo! No more going back to that blasted cold AlGeo room. Hopefully I can get some free pens, some free candy/food, ...oh yea, can't forget those free condoms, lol. New topic! Badminton tryouts are fun, because I didn't have to worry about making it through the first cut (which means I made it by the way), along with all the returning members of the badminton team. The problem lies with the second tryout with the junior girls. And that's where they start cutting the senior girls...and I might be one of them since I suck so much. School is a huge bore right now, especially lunch time! It seems everybody likes to disappear during that time, and then I'm left with nothing to do! Guess I could...read.

I got way too many things on my mind..can't be healthy.

Taking the Bus

Wow, first day of taking the bus since coming back from the christmas break. I think I really let myself go by driving to school everyday and barely exercising. I might have gained 10 lbs.!!! I'll get back into the habit of taking an hour to get home, and walking after the first two days. I really hate it when parents can't decide on something until the very last minute. My dad always had this thing about me not being able to take the car during the school week because my mom would have to use it. So tomorrow, I'm going to this place for racquets class, and Mr. Acomb is kindof expecting me to drive there and drive people back..except I don't have car anymore! It took him 45 minutes to give me an answer, I mean, a simple yes or no would have been fine..but nooooooo...he had to complain about how I would crash the car, and how my mom wouldn't be able to get anywhere because she was at work without a car! Wow, I held my breath the entire time when I wrote that. But hey, my dad is a very nice guy so I have to respect him when he says no. Screw Mr. Acomb! No taking advantage of my awesome driving skills!
School now is alright, nothing new to report except some people got some tattoos over the weekend. Hopefully none of them will regret it in a couple of years. I seriously can't wait for university, just so I can meet some new people, and maybe check out some guys (not a lot of guys to check out in Woburn...close to none), and plus there aren't any guys worth dating either (maybe just a few). Well, i guess I also can't wait for university because I'm just so sick of high school! (other than it being free, which is nice). The heating in our AlGeo room is busted and it was 16 degrees in there! Brrrrrr!!! Our body heat brought it up to 17 i think - which is still extremely bad! Hopefully my chemistry presentation isn't tomorrow because I'm not confident that I will do a good job, but with my luck, tiff and I would probably be the first to present..woohoo.

Go 2005!

Wow, I totally forgot to update my blog for the new year. My parents went away to Cuba for a week, first week of school actually, so I got the car and it was great. On the Thursday and Friday night of that week, I went to two different all-you-can-eat restaurants. Thursday night was an all-you-can-eat steak restaurant, which was excellent, and Friday night was an all-you-can-eat hotpot place, which was very delicious also. The steakhouse restaurant was so pretty! Instead of having chairs that movie and whatnot, they had leather sofas. SOFAS! That was pretty awesome, other than the fact that they were so comfortable, that we started getting pretty tired while eating. Going back another week was my New Year's Eve get-together, which was alright. Not a lot of people came but we had a lot of fun nonetheless (first time drinking!). We played Apples to Apples, watched some TV, played some ping pong, and a friend stayed for the night and we watched Casablanca. I'm pretty sure I would have appreciated the movie more if we didn't watch it at 4 am in the morning. Zoom past to last week. Last week was the first week of school and it was horrible. I didn't want to do any work, and then all these tests in things that I should've studied for over the break had to be written. And since my parents weren't at home, I didn't go to bed until 2 am every night. Abby and I had a lot of fun just bonding for a week, and today she has to take the bus back to Kingston. *sniff*. I'm not that sad though because she's in a bad mood for some reason and its pissing me off. I'm going up to stay with her during March Break and hopefully play some badminton with her Queens buddies. I watched Alias on Wednesday and it wasn't that bad, kind of predictable with the whole Sydney and Vaughan thing. Anyways, the OC on Thursday was pretty hilarious, and I think I'm starting to like that show a lot. Gilmore Girls was doing the rerun thing on Wednesday, so nothing new to report there. I heard yesterday that Jennifer Aniston and Brad Pitt decided to "formally break up", which I guess is pretty sad since they've been living together for 7 years, but Brad wanted a family, and Jen wanted to make more money. It just wasn't clicking anymore. Speaking of not clicking anymore, that Russell Peters thing is starting to get on my nerves. I mean, it was great to watch the movie, laugh and repeat those hilarious one-liners. But everywhere I go now, people keep repeating those lines OVER and OVER and OVER again!! In kumon, I hear from across the room, "Confucius say, you got to jail BAD BOY!", and in a restaurant, "somebody gonna get a hurt real bad." They're funny, but people who keep repeating it, and repeating it, will eventually kill it! Russell needs to find some new material so I can hear some different lines, and not the same bloody ones over and over. Ending on a happy note, I went to a birthday party yesterday and it was a lot of fun (Happy birthday Robyn and Ian). The food was great (thank you mr/mrs hughes), and we played some board games, like the Battle of the Sexes, and Apples to Apples. We watched Napoleon Dynamite too, which was a pretty hilarious movie.